Inspiration Thursday

15 09 2011

I can’t believe it’s already Thursday again! This week has flown by but I’m SOOOOO ready for this weekend! 🙂 Since it is Thursday it’s time once again to link up with Gussy Sews’ Inspiration Workshop! This weeks inspiration – Favorite Shop.

I don’t do as much shopping as I would like to be able to do. 🙂 But, there are few stores that are my fav other than the obvious (Target, Macy’s, Ulta…)




One of my favorite and most inspiring stores is IKEA. They have some of the most practical solutions for small spaces and organization without sacrificing style. I mean, who else offers chic styling while providing everything you would need for your home or a specific room without breaking your budget? And, even when I don’t purchase anything, I always walk away with a new idea or inspiration for my home.









Another favorite and inspiring shop is Barnes & Noble. From the moment I walk in the door I can sense the creative possibilities from the myriad genres, authors, styles etc. My first stop is (of course) the Starbucks counter where I order my venti soy no water chai tea latte (zen in a cup).


With latte in hand I begin to walk around until I end up in one section or another perusing whatever selections I feel led to. You see, inside of me is an author waiting to get out. 🙂 One day I just know I will write a book of sometime (until then, this blog is my writing outlet 🙂 ) I get so inspired by the DIY section, the Language section, the Self-help, etc etc etc. I could spend hours looking at recipe books, or fiction, or history… Reading is my passion, and B&N helps me get my fix. 🙂



What inspires you? What shops have you been to that fill you with inspiration to the point that you want to go and do something about it? Personally, I have to be careful not to replace food addiction with a shopping addiction. 🙂 BUT I do like to use “inspiration” trips to stores like I mentioned above to fill my time with something productive and useful rather than destructive and self-harming (i.e. over-eating, negative thoughts, etc). This journey I’m on is about self-discovery NOT just losing weight and getting skinny. So, where does your inspiration come from?





*Disclaimer: I have not been solicited by or received anything in exchange for mentioning these stores on this blog. I’m just sharing my opinion as a consumer.

Inspiration Thursdays

8 09 2011

I’ve been trying to think of ways to be more intentional with this blog. I want it to encompass all of me, not just my weight loss and health efforts. Some of you may know that I have a crafty side, and love a good DIY project, scrapping session, making bows, etc etc etc. One of the crafty blogs I follow is Gussy Sews. I recently discovered her Inspiration Workshop! and want to dedicate each Thursday to a blog about the prompt of the week. I think it will be fun to take the prompt, and show a little more of myself on this blog, as well as tie it to my health and wellness journey. 🙂

This weeks prompt is Inspiring Books. I am an avid reader, mostly for pleasure. I enjoy all kinds of books, and usually read before bed, or to relax during the day. My favorite place to read is at the beach. It is so nice to lay out with an enthralling book with the sounds of the ocean in the background…

One of the most inspiring books I have read is Rules of the Red Rubber Ball by Kevin Carroll.

About two years ago I heard Kevin speak, and he is one of the most engaging, dynamic speakers I’ve been honored to hear. His book is easy to read, and very inspiring. My favorite quote from the book is “Commit to your passion and adversity won’t derail you” (Carroll, Kevin. Rules of the Red Rubber Ball: Find and Sustain Your Life’s Work. [New York]: ESPN, 2004. Print.)

You often hear the question, “If money wasn’t an issue, what would your dream job be?” And I bet each of us could answer that question in a heartbeat. We get so wrapped up in our day to day lives that we often lose site of what we are most passionate about. We get stuck in a rut, go about our routines, and all too often resist change, even changes we want.

I know for me, the changes I am trying to make in my life revolve around health and wellness. Am I passionate about it? Not so much… But the results and the things I’ll be able to do when I reach my goals ARE what I’m passionate about, so in turn, I need to re-direct my passion, so to speak in order to achieve those goals.

What are you passionate about? What’s keeping you from it? What can you do to change that?

Yoga App? Really?

4 09 2011

At this point in my life I just don’t have the extra funds to join a “real” gym. I am so fortunate that my job has very nice gym with weight machines, cardio machines, free weights, etc; but I also love classes like yoga, zumba, etc, so not really having a way to do that right now I was trying to find ways to do them at home.

I found this app, My Yoga Routine, for my Android phone. I was very quite skeptical about using my phone to do yoga. I mean, could it really be as good as a video or class? Really? The answer is, yes! I did the 15 minute sun salutation routine and it was really good!

It’s even good for those who have never taken yoga or are very new to yoga. It has explanations for each pose and they are very detailed and easy to follow. When you’re ready to go through the routine, it has a seamless video that takes you through each pose. It was easy to follow (yes, even on my phone screen) and it felt great. 🙂

So, this week I achieved two goals: (1) Write 3 blogs, and (2) Yoga/Meditation. Yay!

Since I was sick this week, I did not get any cardio in – boo! But tomorrow starts a new week and I’m going for a minimum of 3 cardio sessions this week (maybe more?). I also did not consistently track my points – ugh! But, again, it’s a new week. 🙂

Despite once again not meeting all of my goals, I’m feeling really good about things. Here’s to a new week with even more accomplishments! 🙂

Reality Check

1 06 2011

Today I got quite a shock when I stepped on the scale. Though I knew from the feel of my clothes what I should expect, seeing that number really gave me a dose of reality. I was originally going to go strictly by waist measurement, but the more I thought about it the more I wanted to know what my number was on the scale. My plan for now is to weigh in the 1st of each month. Today I got my “new” starting point and my goal is to lose 10 pounds a month minimum. July 1st I will weigh in again and hopefully be AT LEAST 10 pounds lighter. 🙂

If you followed my original blog then you know how my journey started. I was brought on the Dr. Oz Show where I met my inspiration and personal wellness coach, Nancy Shuessler. That day, October 21, 2009 was an amazing and life changing day. I was completely overwhelmed, but ready to start a new life of health and wellness.

Twelve weeks later I was brought back on the show where it was revealed that I had lost nearly 50 pounds. My favorite reveal of the show was when I found out that my body fat % had gone from an unmeasurable, but greater than 50% to a measurable 46%. The most phenominal part of the show was when they unveiled an enormous, high tech eliptical machine that they were GIVING to me! I love that machine! 🙂

During that trip to NYC for the second show taping several things happened that caused me some concern. My relationship with my husband, my relationship with food, and most importantly my view of myself really came into question during that trip. After the first taping I went from an all time low point in my life, to an amazing high. I truly believed I’d never be the same. And I’m not. But after that second taping, I went from an incredible high to some rocky times.

Life tends to throw us some pretty crazy curve balls. If it’s not one thing going on, it’s another. Being a food addict you have to learn ways to cope with life’s curve balls without turning to food. At this point, I was only 12 weeks into this new lifestyle. I was still in the “honeymoon” phase so to speak, but the honeymoon came to a crashing halt.

In the course of the next few months my life was turned completely upside down:

  1.  My husband and in-laws and I moved into a new apartment
  2. I lost my job
  3. We went on a road trip to New York to see family
  4. I got a new job
  5. My in-laws moved out and we had to get roommates
  6. We got a new house and moved to the other side of town

During all of this I was also struggling to make my marriage work. I was struggling to be successful at diet and exercise. I had goals and dreams I wanted to accomplish, but I was losing myself in the process. I was trying so hard to be what everyone else wanted and needed me to be that I forgot WHY I was doing it all in the first place.

I gained and lost the same 10-15 pounds. I was miserable physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. I was drained and beaten and at the end of my rope. And all this time I was trying to convince Nancy, and the world, that I was ok. I had this! But the scale said differently. I was eating according to the plan Nancy had for me, but in addition to that I was eating out more and making some not so great choices. It was a spiral of negative self talk and bad choices. And it ended up costing me a lot in the end. More than just gaining weight, I lost a friend.

At the end of October I made a very difficult, very personal decision to leave my husband. I loved him very much, but it was not a healthy relationship and I had to leave. The next couple of months to follow were very difficult. I went from having a beautiful three bedroom home with a huge kitchen and a lot of “stuff”, to sleeping on my brothers couch and living out of a suitcase. I had to get rid of so much stuff, and it was good, but it was HARD. It was uncomfortable. It was not where I saw myself at that stage of my life, but I knew deep down I had made the right decision. I had a hard time letting go of all of my things. I had built a beautiful life for us, and though it was just “stuff” it had become my identity. Letting go of it all was a challenge, and it still is today if I think about it too much.

The most difficult part was feeling like I had failed. Feeling embarrassed, and feeling like I had to explain myself. No one person made me feel this way, and to be honest, I was surprised that I felt that way. But I learned to get past it, and I now understand that it wasn’t a failure and I am not a bad person for leaving my marriage. It was the best decision I have ever made and my life is better because of it.

So, all of this to say that crap happens. 🙂 Life happens. I’m trying to learn how to get through life without turning to food. Good, bad, indifferent, food is always there. But I can be stressed with life and fat, or I can be stressed with life and healthy.

This journey is all about learning how to live as healthy as possible. I may never be a skinny-minnie. And honestly, I don’t want to be. But I know that where I am right now is not healthy, and it’s keeping me from realizing my dreams of being a mom. So one day at a time, I’m going to do my best to make GOOD choices and slowly but surely whittle away this fat to reveal a healthier, happier, sexier woman. The woman I am meant to be.